To say that we can feel "schismed" at times is an understatement. It happens. We dip into old ways of living, try to live "up to" an external standard, or lower our defenses, and just plain lose sight of who we are.
The idea of the false-self has captured much of my attention over the past four years now. Whether pertaining to theology, philosophy, or simply the day-to-day relationships of life, the false-self is a pivotal concept for the maturing person to wrestle with.
This concept is really no different than the "old self" mentioned by Paul in Romans, Ephesians, and Colossians; it's the term given to a manner in which a person is acting that is not truly who they are in the present. The term "old" carries with it a strong connotation juxtaposing the work done in us by Christ, which is completed (1 Cor. 1:30). It argues against the fact that we are a new creation altogether (Eph. 4:24, Col. 3:10). However, I like the use of the term "false" because it implies a lie. This is nothing short of what Satan speaks to our soul in that moment of choice: act this way, or that. And, subsequently, this is due to the fall.
To this effect, Mikhail Bakhtin writes
Of course, this fact may yield a split, it may be impoverished; it is possible to ignore activity and live by mere passivity, it is possible to attempt to prove one's alibi in being, it is possible to be a pretender. It is possible to deny one's obligation-imposing uniqueness. (Toward a Philosophy of the Act)
What he goes on to describe is that the Christian has a "fissure" or "gulf" between their true status, and the faux status of the old and false. It's this arena of the non that Satan wants us to dance in. The enemy wants us to remain as schismed as possible. Thus, we must fight to remove the masks we unknowingly wear, and be present in who we truly are in Christ.
Whether your reading James' commission to live vulnerably with one another via confession for the sake of healing, or Hebrews' plea to continue to meet with one another, Christians have a responsibility to live in who they are presently - not who they were. And to that I would add that to live in the olddoesn't always mean that you are living in blatant sin, but instead could be a mask of pride, implying that you "have it all together". Bakhtin carries on,
The unspoken premise of the ritualism of life is generally not humility, but pride. One must humble oneself to the level of personal participation and responsibility. In trying to understand the whole of our lives as a masked representation, and each of our acts as ritualistic, we become pretenders. (TPA)
So fight not only for the truth abstractly, but also for the truth regarding yourself and the Church. Be true, Christian, and you will find healing and hope. According to Ephesians, in the true self, through Christ, you will find life.