In the midst of confusion, heartache, fear, and shame, consider the cry of David in Psalm 25. Consider the man who was being pursued by death, yet still lived true; was lost and often found no answer, but still kept seeking; followed after righteousness, yet still found himself sinning. How we show up and engage our world doesn't always match our heart's intentions and aspirations. We're weak. We fail.
Sadly, that'll always be the case until the Lord finally calls His bride home. But that future hope shouldn't limit us. The Lord has freed Israel for life. He's called us out from death, and has placed us into this world so that we may live. This world is broken, and so are the people in it. However, we must remember that these fights we have, these struggles, these hurts, they are not fights with other people. No, our fight is a spiritual one.
Think the enemy - Peter describes the devil as a lion. And sure, the lion is a ferocious predator, but it is also a sly pack animal. It uses its expertise and cunning to drop its prey. It's secretive, subtle, and silently strikes from the peripheral. Our enemy places traps all around us. Snares that seek to pierce our hearts with their rusty hooks, and enslave our souls to a bound, dormant place. That is sin. Sin will devour us if we let it. But that's the catch...
Now, consider David once more. He didn't stop sinning. No one does. Instead, they become repentant. The work of the Gospel affects their mind in such a glorious way so as to aid them in seeing things the way God does. So, consider for a moment David's prayer. He begs God to not remember his sins - reminding us that they are there - but that God will instead rememberhim. We are more than our sins. Those blessed who are in Christ are qualitatively from a different order altogether. Their soul, their true self has been salvaged and restored. It is this perspective that's at stake.
The enemy tempts us to sin, and then uses our sin - or rather that guilt - to blind us of the glory of God in our salvation. But God seeks us out like some treasure hunter. He unearths us from our hidden burial plots, and emphatically brushes off the dirt, so as to gaze at us wholly. And it's here, when the grime and mud have been wiped away, that we are able to reflect His image most clearly, and finally recognize our worth.
And so, Christian, if you claim Christ's life, death, and resurrection as your own, then you have been saved to live. You have been sought out with much intensity by the Treasure Hunter. He has completely wiped off all of your filth, and has casted it down beneath His feet without a second thought. He cares not to remember your sin, but looks desirably at you, as now you reflect Him.
So, I consider my sin. I must loathe sin. But not because my righteousness depends on it. Instead, I must hate it for the fact that it will distract me from enjoying the righteousness that is freely mine in Christ. Rest here, Christian: